Lady Gaga Opens Up About Her PTSD And Chronic Pain Following Her Sexual Assault At 19

Pop star Lady Gaga, who stars in the latest remake of A Star Is Born, sat down to do an interview with Vogue and things got deep. Gaga opened up about past traumas and how she has dealt with rape, chronic pain, and mental health struggles with PTSD.

While discussing her earlier years in the music business, Gaga shared a horrific story of being raped by a music producer. 

She told Vogue:

It took years. No one else knew. It was almost like I tried to erase it from my brain. And when it finally came out, it was like a big, ugly monster. And you have to face the monster to heal.

The rape led to PTSD, which she described:

For me, with my mental-health issues, half of the battle in the beginning was, I felt like I was lying to the world because I was feeling so much pain but nobody knew. So that’s why I came out and said that I have PTSD, because I don’t want to hide—any more than I already have to. 

And the PTSD manifested as physical symptoms:

I feel stunned. Or stunted. You know that feeling when you’re on a roller coaster and you’re just about to go down the really steep slope? That fear and the drop in your stomach? My diaphragm seizes up. Then I have a hard time breathing, and my whole body goes into a spasm. And I begin to cry. That’s what it feels like for trauma victims every day, and it’s miserable. I always say that trauma has a brain. And it works its way into everything that you do. 

Along with physical and mental trauma from PTSD, Gaga also suffers from fibromyalgia

She explained the cycle of pain and how one illness triggers the next, and the frustration of other people not understanding:

I get so irritated with people who don’t believe fibromyalgia is real. For me, and I think for many others, it’s really a cyclone of anxiety, depression, PTSD, trauma, and panic disorder, all of which sends the nervous system into overdrive, and then you have nerve pain as a result. People need to be more compassionate. Chronic pain is no joke. And it’s every day waking up not knowing how you’re going to feel. 

Gaga’s fans love her fiercely. 

A Star Is Born opens in theaters in the U.S. on October 5, 2018.

H/T: Self, Vogue